Haha, I actually think that was kind of clever… I think I’ve been excited for the Tour de Toona ever since I saw it on our JAM Fund calendar. Even when the race got shortened from 6 days to 4, I was still excited. I wanted to work hard and build some good fitness, like Fidea riding the Tour of Qinghai Lake…
Maybe I was getting a little ahead of myself. I seem to have to keep reminding myself that I’m really still building my base fitness while many of my peers are in need of their mid-season breaks… Kind of weird…
Altoona, Pennsylvania doesn’t seem to be the most interesting place in the world, but I’m not one to complain so much as to see how other parts of the world operate and think about why and how they live. I was super excited when we rode the ITT and Crit course. It was just a cool-looking race. I also like coming to events like this where cyclists almost take over the city. It’s not really nice the way we often do it, but I do think it’s cool for the community and I hope kids see us and want to ride bikes and try out racing when they see us. I remember pre-riding the nationals course in Edmonton last year with Sarah and meeting up with Spidertech and KBS and pretty much just taking over roads with 15 people that would be sketchy with just one rider normally. This was kind of like that. I’ve experienced similar situations in Mt. Hood, Abitibi and other races as well. For a day or a weekend, I think it’s cool. I hope the communities recognize it and appreciate it and that we can turn at least one person on to cycling, if not racing!
I was also having a blast in the managers meeting, listening to the promoter and thinking about what I want to do and how I want to do things to be in cycling, to improve people’s lives and help people find cycling and have life experiences through it all. I could be a team manager, I could drive the car, I could race with my athletes, I could organize races and events, I could pass on everything I’ve learned and bring cycling to more people! That sounds spectacular!!
But back to the race. As per usual, I was over-thinking this short ITT that I wouldn’t have won or even finished in the money in, not matter how much I thought about it… So I rode a little conservatively in the tough first half, and couldn’t pedal hard enough in the technical second half. I could tell, just seconds after crossing the line, that I didn’t go hard enough and didn’t leave it all out there. I also may not have warmed up enough or hard enough, but either way, I did not leave it all out there!!
The disappointment continued into the road race to Blue Knob. I had started to feel better and wanted to work hard and help out my team and put everything out there. I wanted to go with the early move, which proved to be a bad idea and to which Adam responded, “sometimes you don’t think”… true enough… so I go from thinking too much to not thinking at all?? Yup!!
Unfortunately, my short-lived early break got brought back on an early little climb and I just kept going backwards… oh boy! this is not good!! So of course, you chase for a while, but you don’t make any ground… now what? Turn around and pick up the car? I’m not sure where the keys are… Try and find a short cut back to Blue Knob? I guess nobody in Altoona knows what roads go where or how to get to Blue Knob… Finish the stage? I guess that’s the only way to get home…
So I finished the 117 kilometers and I uploaded my power file. Turns out I really shouldn’t have tried to go with that early move, new 5′ power in the first 20′ of “the first stage of the hardest stage race [I’ve] probably ever done” and the 5″, 10″, 30″, 1′, 2′, 5′, 10′, and 20′ peak powers for my day all came in those first 20’… I need somebody to call me an idiot and tell me I know better!! Because I certainly do know better!! I just sometimes think I’m better than I am or at least wish I was better than I am… I did continue to feel better and better as the day went on and actually made pretty good numbers for the day! If only I had not been dumb and just sat in the group, I probably would have been good.
I guess you just get up the next morning, put your pants on one leg at a time, learn from your mistakes and be better today! Right?
So what next?? Sitting in Starbucks with Evan, wondering what is next. Maybe Iron Hill tomorrow? Maybe New Britain on Sunday? Maybe home to Amherst? Maybe training with the JAM Fund boys? No matter what, I will learn from my mistakes, take each experience as it comes, and enjoy as much life as I can with a smile on my face as much as I can!!Tweet this!